Relaunch and Stuff

So I've been enjoying my summer in Europe. Yeah, you read it right. I'm in Europe. Finals were horrible and I'm sure any good therapist would tell you I don't remember much of it because I'm blocking painful memories. That's true. I survived the school year, though, and it feels so great to be free.

And free still has its chains like SAT prep and reviewing science and math for next year, but this is so much better than school. I'm introverted so it's easier for me to work by myself. It's not that I don't like people because I do...sometimes. Other times I hate people more than that grumpy old neighbor of yours.

Meeh, off topic again. Europe is amazing and I love it to death. There are a LOT of pickpockets in Paris, just fyi. It was insane how many times my aunt and uncle almost got pickpocketed. My aunt slapped away someone's hand from her purse!

More tales and pictures to come.

Another warning: I might change my blog name and URL and a lot of other things if I get around to it. This blog is kind of depressing and the quest to be perfect is extremely unhealthy and unrealistic.

And who knows? I might get morose and obsessive again. But hopefully I'll be bloggin' through it all and I'll be YOUR moody little teenage sister.

Yeah, I don't know either. Will you let me blame it on 3 hours of sleep?

Crunch time

It's a week away from finals and I'm a nervous wreck. Due to stress, four ugly pimples have bloomed on my face and I've gained four pounds from stress eating. How much studying have I done? ...a lot but not enough. I'm aiming for an A on my math test tomorrow and an A on the final. What's my average math test score? Uh, C?

Wish me luck and I'm off to the world of studying!

I know I'm not a regular blogger...

And that kind of sucks. I have this obsession with perfection as you all know but I'm hopelessly lazy at the same time.

Bleeeh, how have you guys been? My parents have started turning off the internet in order to force us to study but it hasn't really been working. They forget that my brother has an iPhone and that I can read for hours.

Teenager rebellion is tough. My version of rebelling is forging my mom's signature because she won't let me take AP Biology next year. She found out, of course, and we fought over whether or not I could handle a class like that.

Yes, I'm rebelling by torturing myself. Too many APs aren't good, blah, blah, blah. My GPA needs this. :)

On another random note, drinking tea right before bed is a bad idea.

Meeeh

So my grades haven't seen very much improvement but I did start exercising. It's only walking a few miles a day, but I haven't progressed along enough to jog. My poor body just isn't able to handle it. Lately, my friends have all been exercising and one of them lost 10 lbs! It's enough motivation for me to get my butt kicked into gear. The sad thing is that none of my friends even let me talk about dieting.

They say I'm too skinny even though I'm not and ignore the fact that my body is so soft and loose that I look like a middle aged woman. I may have small bones but I lack any muscle and my fat just...hangs off me. I have a muffin top too. It's gross, I know.

I want a healthier lifestyle because unlike the rest of the Americans, I don't want heart disease in my late thirties because as a teenager I was too stupid to take care of my body. Wow, what a run on sentence that was. But whenever I try to join in their conversations about healthy foods and new exercises, they just chide me and say "You're so skinny" and then leave me out of the rest of the conversation.

It's really annoying, but I didn't mean to complain about that. xD If anything, by shutting me out they're motivating me to be healthier. Just you see.

Competitive much, Juju?

Yes, very. :)

Motivation

It's been over a month since I last posted. Whoops, I am very sorry about that. Blogging regularly isn't a  talent of mine, as you can see. There was a lag in the self-improvement journey because I'm such a procrastinator and I have motivation issues, but I think things are going smoothly right now. While I'm not much of a runner (my knees are sort of bad for a youngster) I have taken up walking/speed walking and might actually try jogging soon. Because, really, speed walking is for old ladies, and while I am one inside, my body isn't actually like that yet. I bought some nice sneakers the other day and got a pair of simple ballet flats so I don't have to wear sneakers every day.

Motiviational-wise, I have a bunch of cheesy quotes taped around my room so hopefully that'll get me to work harder.

It's getting warm where I live, so I should probably get rid of my winter flab so I can look cute in shorts. ;) We'll see how that goes, as someone who adores food and loathes exercise.

The semester ended this week for my school, and it's time for semester two. Ugh, there's a whole other semester to muddle through? It should be over, right? The good news is that I have a B in math. Not a B- or a C or a D. I got a solid B!

Hopefully, 2013 will be my year.

xoxo,
Juju

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve here in the states, and even though I know it's Christmas in other places of the world, I'm bent on celebrating my Christmas Eve the way my family does every year: with Christmas specials on the tv and lots of cookie baking. This year we have friends coming to visit and they're arriving today, so the whole relaxation thing takes a backseat to our frantic cleaning. :P It's all good, though, because I really like the family friends who are visiting. They're coming from across the country and have two children around my age. The only problem is that since I'm a spoiled, materialistic American teenager, my parents bought me a lot of gifts. And since the friends are going to be here on Christmas day, they'll witness me opening a million presents and generally being spoiled.

While I don't mind the number of gifts I have (I don't really care very much about the gifts I get for Christmas. I just like the "Christmas Spirit" and giving gifts. I'm bad at being materialistic when it's acceptable.) a huge part of me is worried about being judged by our visitors. My parents are also fairly worried about that, so they've been trying to make me open my presents early. Which isn't working, because I'm a stickler for opening everything at once on Christmas morning.

This reads more like a diary entry than anything, so I'm sorry for being an awful blogger.

Merry Christmas, everyone! (Or Christmas Eve, I guess) I hope you all have an amazing holiday~

Love,
Juju

Mod Browsing

I was browsing Modcloth after a (failure of a) study marathon. These are some super cute things among the already ridiculously cute items for sale online. The first bag is my favorite. It looks 2d.